Daniel and Ryan take their relationship to the next level, trying new things in scene and clarifying what they mean to each other.
Testing the Limits
Author: Tamryn Eradani
Series: Daniel and Ryan
Release Date: October 23, 2017
Format: ePub, Mobi, PDF
Cover Artist: Natasha Snow
Word Count: 11100
Sex Content: Explicit
Testing the Limits
Tamryn Eradani© 2017
All Rights Reserved
Mark: Haven’t seen you at the club in a while. Is work keeping you busy?
It’s a check-in and an inquiry rolled into one. Mark’s looking for personal answers while knowing he and Daniel aren’t…personal. Daniel’s been absent from the club for a long time, even for him, and knowing Mark, this is both a genuine question and a subtle feeling-out to see if Daniel’s still open to scening.
Mark’s always been good at giving Daniel space without it seeming like coddling. Mark knows who Daniel is and what he’s like, and he tries to meet him where Daniel’s most comfortable. Gavin never did. Gavin was Gavin, and it meant Daniel always knew what he was in for when he scened with him, but it also meant Daniel had to be in the right headspace. Gavin didn’t adapt.
Mark’s more flexible—too flexible sometimes. Daniel likes having someone to push against. He likes when they push back.
Ryan pushes back in the best of the ways. He pushes Daniel right up to his limits and, if Daniel wants, he pushes past them. There are some hard limits Daniel has but there are others which are only limits because he’s afraid to test them on his own or with a partner he doesn’t completely trust. With Ryan, Daniel’s learned how his body is capable of more things than he thought.
The message is still waiting for Daniel when he opens his phone.
It would be easy to send back a simple yes or maybe a more in-depth big project—performance reviews coming up. Mark would accept either of those. And he’d read into what Daniel didn’t say—I’ll be back when work’s quieted down.
Easy but disingenuous. Daniel doesn’t expect to be at the club any time soon. He hopes not to be. It’s not like Mark can’t find other partners to scene with; he’s easygoing and perceptive, and Daniel knows he was seeing at least two others while also seeing him. Different people for different things. Different people for different schedules.
Maybe he should send back exclusive arrangement at the moment. It has the benefit of being true, and it leaves the door open for the future.
Again, there’s a touch of not-right in this answer. Because he doesn’t want this relationship with Ryan to end? Because it’s strange to plan for the end of a relationship while in one? Because he doesn’t know where he and Ryan stand?
Daniel’s been with partners before who preferred monogamy, but it’s been for a variety of reasons. Some liked the feeling that they were the only one—possession sometimes, emotional attachment others. Some liked that it meant sex was safer—only one partner, regular testing, everything clean, no surprises. Some liked the implication that they were the only person their partner needed. Daniel’s never identified with the last one.
Different people for different schedules.
Different people for different needs.
Ryan’s the first person Daniel’s been with whom he could be happily, long-term monogamous with.
He’s just not sure if Ryan feels the same way.
Daniel leaves the message unanswered, because he doesn’t know how to answer it.